Journeys

Everyday brings new information. What we do with that information colors our thoughts and emotions for the day. Fear is a powerful emotion. I am scared of losing my new job. Why am I scared? I am scared because I heard that the company is having trouble making payroll. This scares me. So what do I do with this piece of information? I can choose to let my mind run wild with fear; what will happen if I lose this job, will I be able to pay the rent, will I be able to buy my own car, (which I feel I desperately need), will I be able to feed my family…Or I can choose to tell myself that today I have a job and if I lose it then there will be a better one to replace it. Or I can choose to not think about today at all. I can focus on what I hope for the future. I am hoping to go back to school and get a masters degree. I am hoping that my health will improve and I will find a better paying job in the next year. I am hoping that I can move my family to a better neighborhood. I am hoping that we will be able to find a place to live where my husband and I have our own bedroom,(right now we have a bed in the living room). So when information comes my way I can either let my fear take over, or I can focus on my hope.  The choice will determine whether I am strong today or weak. I have found in strength it is possible to overcome fear and live with some sense of peace. I know when you are scared it is not easy to make the choice to think hopefully. I have had many dark days. Too many dark days. I want brightness to fill my time because there is one cliche that holds the essence of human existence… Life is short.I am 42. According to US census information the average lifespan of a woman is approximately  72. I am more than halfway through my journey. I want to take control of my life and make the rest of the journey what I want it to be… I want to experience joy, peace and love. Stay tuned and I will share my journey in the hope that some piece of information you find here might just make your journey pleasant for even a moment and by sharing mine too.Be Well.